I need ADVICE & MOTIVATION 4 REINVENTING MYSELF :)?

I have suffered from anxiety since i was a small child and overtime i gradually became depressed from the frustration of my anxiety. I starting taking citalopram many months ago and at first it truly helped but now i feel like ive hit rock bottom, everyday feels like GINUWINE HELL inside. I feel horrible and paranoid all the time. Its a struggle to go to the grocery store, anxiety and depression have taken a strong grip over my life, i've been avoiding friends and family and wanting to keep myself locked in my room all day and night, i sleep sometimes until 3 p.m. I constantly feel helpless and hopeless and i feel like my life and future are quickly slipping away BUT TODAY i am FED UP, i called a friend and apologized about me not spending time with her and other loved ones and i realized that i have a Sickness-Depression and anxiety-and that i purposly am not doing these things and the only way to fix it IS for me to DO SOMETHING about it AND TODAY I am ready to take that step!